1. |
Greyscale
03:29
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How can you always be the epitome of the hope less
The brain washed, and the lost
You needed the solid ground to build your life on
Where is the pride in what you do
You lack confidence in who you are
Just putting up with the day to day
Praying you’ll be the man you really are
I’m running out of words, running out of ways just to let you know
That this isn't what it used to be
This is just the, just the enemy taking over me
I’m afraid of what I’m becoming, a stranger in the mirror
The embodiment of everything I ever hated
But I can take it back, I’m taking back control
I’m running out of words to tell you, and I’m running out of ways to let you know
This isn't who I planned to be
Am I the enemy, the one who threw away my dreams
Do you wish you were someone else
Every time you see your reflection
And look away but it never helps
Every time you see your reflection
Does it feel like the day set on your failures
Can’t you cope with what’s become of you
If you don’t change, I’m afraid you’ll lose everything that mattered to you
If you don’t change, you will never find yourself again
I’m running out of words to tell you, and I’m running out of ways to let you know
This isn't who I plan to be
Am I the enemy, the one who threw away my dreams
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2. |
When You're Home
03:51
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Broken frames on the walls
You’re lying alone
With all these thoughts racing through your head
Memories of the things he’s done
And in all his lies
You won’t come back again
I need you more than you’ll ever believe
But when you look at me
Whose face do you see
And are you scared that’ll I grow up to be
Just like him
There were great big dreams she had to sacrifice
Now we’re on our own hoping for a different life
And it might not be the same address but we’ll make the best
Then she laid me down and said to close my eyes
And promised me that everything would be alright
With fresh tears rolling down her smiling cheeks
As she watched me sleep
In coming home to a house with empty rooms
How do you go on, on, on
When a part of you is gone
(When a part of you is gone)
There were great big dreams she had to sacrifice
Now we’re on our own hoping for a different life
And it might not be the same address but we’ll make the best
Then she laid me down and said to close my eyes
And promised me that everything would be alright
With fresh tears rolling down her smiling cheeks
As she watched me sleep
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3. |
Escape Artist
03:41
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I feel so lost in the gift of anxiety
That you left behind
Did I ever thank you
And all the burdens you couldn’t hold on your shoulders
Was it easy to drop them
I will never forget when I had to grow up
Overnight and watch my whole world collapse
Life like shards of glass
Why, why, why is my family broken
It’s easier to let go
Than learning to live like this and I know
I won’t let you down, as far as I go, and I won’t let you learn the things I know
You told me once this was easily fixed, but I’m sorry
Nothing is ever enough
The way you lie, it gets underneath my skin
I’ll never live down what you’ve done
I WON’T, I WON’T
I’ll never live down what you’ve
DONE, with every move I make
Gives you a chance to judge me
Your words always cut the
DEEPEST, DEEPEST
And I’m so sick of it
Give me a second; ill prove I can be
BETTER THAN YOU
I CAN BE
BETTER THAN YOU
HONESTLY
MORE OF A MAN THAT YOU COULD EVER HOPE TO BE
SOLD IT OFF FOR JUST ONE DRINK
Say what you want, say what you will
Tell me that it’s not your fault
But I know, no matter how the chips would fall
I never walked out like, never walked out like you
Say what you want, say all you want to me
Oh no, I’ve heard this one before
And I will take no more
Because it’s easier to let go
Than learning to live like this and I know
I won’t let you down, as far as I go, and I won’t let you learn the things I know
You told me once this was easily fixed, but I’m sorry
Nothing is ever enough
The way you lie, it gets underneath my skin
I’ll never live down what you’ve done
I WON’T, I WON’T
I’ll never live down what you’ve done
I hope you found the answer at the bottom of the glass x2
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4. |
Nothing Gold
04:07
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Moving on has never been so hard
When time starts pulling me from what I'm loving for
I'm putting down my childish things
and all these moments feel like words from songs I used to sing
Just singing along
to the sweetest song we know
Though we grow and ties do sever
This melody will last forever and it goes
(On and on and on and on)
so don't tell me that I was wrong
(On and on and on and on)
believing for so long
Clocks ticking and my time is up and all my responsibilities are piling up
and it all comes down to what I do from here
When all my friends are moving on
With houses family school and jobs and
I'm still trying to find where I belong
Just singing along
to the sweetest song we know
though we grow and ties do sever
this melody will last forever and it goes
(On and on and on and on)
so don't tell me that I was wrong
(On and on and on and on)
Believing for so long
There's a song I use to know
and if you sing along with me
We might remember how it goes
(Group vocals)
Don't tell me that I was wrong
Don't tell me that I was wrong
Don't tell me that I was wrong
Don't tell me that I was
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5. |
Alive, But I Forget
03:54
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Whoa, oh
Maybe I’m just tired of living life this way
Was it too hard to believe
That I could make a difference
In this godforsaken world
By myself
And now I see
The change was only me
You cannot hide
And there’s no hope
When thieves & killers run the show
And every moment’s a
DISASTER
Lives are shorter
At the
BORDER
Between life and death so thin it can’t be seen
YOU
CANT
IMAGINE
WHAT ITS LIKE
WHEN YOU TAKE FEAR FOR A WIFE
Whoa, oh
Maybe I’m just tired of living life this way
Was it too hard to believe
That I could make a difference
In this godforsaken world
By myself
And now I see
The change was only me x2
Oh is it fair that life is just a game of chance
Born in luxury or suffering
Oh, there is hope in tragedy
Your persistence makes you stronger
They keep pulling you down x3
Did you know today would be your last day
When you woke up this morning
Cause you never what’s around the next corner
And you never know
What’s at your door
They’re always saying that things would get better
But
Years and years and nothing ever changes
Hard to believe in
Humanity
When pain and hatred are all you
See
Whoa, oh
Maybe I’m just tired of living life this way
Was it too hard to believe
That I could make a difference
In this godforsaken world
By myself
And now I see
The change was only me x2
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